I was thinking about this a few days ago, about why i would rather work for a cause that helps than fill a shareholder's pocket. It felt to me that maybe I want my work to feel meaningful that has results larger than me, a form of ego that is stroked at the binary of good and evil. In the end, this is still the human experience, and I relate with OP. Parallely, I believe I'd rather channel my human flaws towards the better