I took down this post. In it, I originally spoke of how many assaults I'd "caught" in EA, and my unhappiness with my experiences with CEA and the Community Health. My message didn't get across and I was repeatedly told I was emotional, hyperbolic, etc. The post failed to convey the value and message I wanted it to convey - which is to start a discussion on assault within EA and whether it was being handled well, and devolved into critiques of me through the very limited information I conveyed in the post; not to say the criticism is or isn't fair, but wasn't my intent to get personal to turn this into a discussion about me. There were also multiple requests for more information about the assaults themselves (which was also the case in the previous forum post I participated in, in which the Time article on sexual misconduct was linked), which I am unwilling to share in a public forum. I've removed it as it is counterproductive and needlessly takes away from discussing sexual assault within EA.
I'd like to add - For the commenters (@Ubuntu and @Chris Leong ) saying "if EA were to hire you" - I don't want EA to hire me. I don't want to join CH. I've never applied for, wanted a job with CH, nor do I think I have said anything I spoke to implied I wanted a job with CH? If there's something I said that implied that, I'm sorry, but to be clear I've never wanted a job with EA nor am I in EA. If you mean that I sent a proposal to CEA about developing a policy, reporting system, and training to mean CEA was "hiring" me - I don't see it as being "hired" or wanting to work with CEA.
What I wanted to replace the system of being my being CEA's unofficial report-taker. @Ubuntu I agree with you in that I shouldn't have been the Community Health team's unofficial report taker, and you SHOULD be unhappy that I was doing that. That was one of the intents of my post, to call attention to that. It truly was my mistake to not have stopped doing this work for EA earlier, as it seems completely unwanted by the movement. Replacing my work taking reports and supporting survivors and handing that over to your Community Health team would have taken - a month, max two, to do (that's the "proposal" I mention). I also let Community Health know that I wouldn't refer survivors to them, and I've spoken to why in my reply to @Ben Millwood. You're welcome to disagree with my assessment, but I stand firm in this stance. I believe anyone speaking to survivors should bring compassion and support to that work. Also, I'm 99.9% certain the proposal will going to be declined; and should have stated that earlier. I only sent it as a way to say "these are the conditions in which I can continue helping you, if you don't agree, I will not help you."
Further, while most of you seem to be unwilling to admit you have a problem with rape, as your former unofficial report-taker, I believe you do, and I hope you dig deeper and find more about this yourselves. But either way, I have zero desire to continue long term working within EA, or to be part of your movement.
No, my main complaint isn't the lack of payment; I was taking reports and speaking to survivors for years prior. What I didn't realize until two weeks ago is that the way in which CH used my work puts me at higher legal liability, so I want to replace it. My main complaint is that the orgs and the folks listed aren't knowledgable on the topic - while I'm sure are lovely humans in many regards - also aren't willing to admit that they're in over their heads and not experts on SA. I don't think it's malice, just - being overwhelmed, carelessness, bad communication, a lack of putting themselves in my shoes or survivor shoes, that sort of thing. Trying to gather more data makes sense, but trying to gather that data to see if it's worth CH's time/resources to take stronger action on SH/SA without addressing the inherent issues with the difficulty of obtaining such data is short-sighted at best, and from a moral standpoint, we should reduce sexual harassment/assault without first needing to see if the scope of the problem is greater than it is for other groups or not.
My main things are: given that CH seems pretty antagonistic toward survivors or seeing that there's a problem and puts me at risk of legal liability (I guess payment is number 4). Creating a formal relationship with them would lower risk (some information is private, the flow of info from me to CH is better), and for CH, create conditions in which confidentiality exist. And if CH continues to be antagonistic toward survivors, then I'd rather not connect survivors to them. How can I possibly ever send survivors to talk to someone who says she needs to how the accused is beneficial to the movement to make any sort of judgement? I do genuinely want them to more survivor-friendly. I do want them to see that women are being harmed; especially because more trauma comes from mishandling rape cases than from rape itself*. But at the same time, I don't want to spend all that time working with CH without getting paid for my time, nor do I think it's a good idea to try to spend that time unless we have better communication between them & me.
Definitely don't think you're promising anything! And tbh, I'm not sure how I feel about funding versus getting paid directly for doing work (thus far, I don't charge survivors for my work, and only in the past five months have been charging institutions).
*this is from my experience in speaking to survivors, one of my mentor's 30+ years experiences in advocacy, and data (eg, survivors who file police reports experience PTSD at much higher rates than survivors who don't)