A few years ago, I read The Life You Can Save by Peter Singer. I felt deeply inspired. The idea that charities could be compared using evidence and reason, the thought that I could save many lives without sacrificing my own happiness: I found these ideas meaningful, and I hoped they would give my life a sense of purpose (even if other factors were likely also at play).
I became an Intro Fellow and read more. I went to conferences and retreats. I now lead my university group.
But I’m frustrated.
I’m now asked to answer for the actions of a man who defrauded millions of people, and for the purchase of castles and $2000+ coffee tables.
I’m now associated with predatory rationalists.
I’m now told to spend my life reducing existential risk by .00001 percent to protect 1018 future humans, and forced to watch money get redirected from the Global South to AI researchers.[1]
This is not what I signed up for.
I used to be proud to call myself an EA. Now, when I say it, I also feel shame and embarrassment.
I will take the Giving What We Can pledge, and I will stay friends with the many kind EAs I’ve met.
But I no longer feel represented by this community. And I think a lot of others feel the same way.
Edit log (2/6/23, 12:28pm): Edited the second item of the list, see RobBensinger's comment.
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This is not to say that longtermism is completely wrong—it’s not. I do, however, think "fanatical" or "strong" longtermism has gone too far.
Is influencing the far future really tractable? How is x-risk reduction not a Pascal's mugging?
I agree that future generations are probably too neglected right now. But I just don't find myself entirely convinced by the current EA answers to these questions. (See also.)
I appreciate that you took the time to explain your perspective, and I am sorry to hear that you feel as you do. I think it is understandable and I sympathise.
Hopefully things improve and I think that they will.
Some very quick thoughts:
Even if you don't feel part of the community, then you should perhaps still consider keeping an EA identity on the level of values.
For instance, you could continue to believe that you should i) try to do good and ii) try to do it effectively - arguably the core values that underpin EA as a philosophy.
I think that these are rare and admirable values and that EA is just one (though maybe the best) label of many that people use to communicate that they have them.
I don't identify very strongly with the EA community, but I identify strongly with the core values as I see them.